Now do I learn now to canter when all the school horses keep frightening me?
I am really struggling with canter and i've been taking lessons for almost 3 years. I get very scared and sort of bunch up which, of course, doesn't work. My main problem is that I cannot, for the life of me, find a school horse which doesn't have some sort of dangerous vice in canter. Or, if I find such a horse, they are soon sold, put into foal or injured. So I get inconsistent lessons in which cantering is easy and relaxed. The rest of them, by a huge margin, are hugely stress inducing.
The current three horses I'm riding have the following habits: one bucks big time when going into right canter (he got me off with three bucks this morning, after numerous bucking fits which I managed to sit), the second one refuses to canter unless I apply the crop and then he bucks and occasionally reverses into other horses to kick them and the third one has this lovely habit on turning on the spot and galloping for the door as soon as he feels the slightest give in reins. Now, I realise a better rider can sort all of these out, but I'm not that rider.
I live in a very non horsey country and I have tried just about all of the riding schools around. Believe it or not, these two riding schools are the best. The rest of them are worse by a huge margin.
I'm really disheartened. I just don't know what to do. Just as I get my confidence up, I get thrown off. It's happened many times and I just want to give up altogether. It doesn't help that I keep getting told off by instructors for "Riding them wrong and making them buck". Sure, buddy, that's why they buck with you as well...
Does anyone have any ideas? I can afford to buy my own horse, but that's a whole other can of worms - how on earth do I find a sane horse to buy when I can't even find a sane school horse? Leasing or a share isn't really done here at all, unfortunately.
Can I just give up on the canter and trott only? I know enough to stay on a galloping horse in two point, if I ever get into such a situation by accident.