I enjoy barrel racing, however, one of my other horses and I only trail ride. Cheyenne and I just lope on flat trails, work liberty, and just play around. We do tricks, she loves to be groomed, and I love to groom her.
She hates shows, but loves a good pasture or trail ride. She loves to be around me, as do I love to be around her. We just hang out together, and enjoy each other's presence. I have a feeling that's how you are.
I started barrel racing, and I was so scared. Now I love it. But on weekdays, I just hang out with my horses. That's a better reward than any show can give you, IMO.
Maybe go to a show and enter for fun, not to win. If you mess up, nobody cares! If you decide you don't like it, do what me and Cheyenne did. DON'T DO IT:) Me and my Cheyenne just love each other and doing trail rides, so that's what we do.
My gelding and I love barrel racing together, so that's what we do.
Do what make you and your horse happy:)
Good luck, and have fun!:)