So.. I'm doing it. I have an apprenticeship. At 28.
I actually can't believe I'm writing this nor do I know where to put it. I've had a bit of a journey in the time since I joined. I'm 28 and overweight at 14stone 5'6 (88kg/166cm) but fortunately continue to lose. I came here looking to learn and grow so that when I buy my first horse I will have a solid foundation to give them, and me, the best experience I can. It's not been easy finding open doors.
I will lose customers (from my own company being halted) and for the next 15 months I will be poor. The school is an hours DRIVE from me and the £140 a week in apprenticeship wage will cover the travel only. I am furiously saving to give me a buffer. The only person supporting me is my other half and he's even willing to help financially so that I can have this year. My family and friends think I'm absolutely mental. I. AM. PETRIFIED.
"But why an apprenticeship?" BECAUSE NO ONE ELSE WILL TEACH ME! I cannot afford, nor am certain enough, to pursue a degree just yet. Stables take one look at me and I'm not competent to exercise their horses (fair enough is true) or maybe no fit enough (mate... I was 19stone/120kg) at one point lol; I have the stamina to muck out and groom. Or maybe not knowledgeable enough (... but I can learn?) and my age (childfree at least for another 5 years!). I love behaviour and training. I'm getting my HGV license. Being denied the opportunity to learn makes this fervour worse. What is a year of my life pursuing something I clearly love? And this hasn't been a three month whirlwind. For YEARS AND YEARS I've wanted to get into the equine world beyond just being a rider at a school learning to do circles.
So who knows where this will take me. Once I figure out who to write a reference as I can't be my own referee, I hope to be fully accepted at this riding for the disabled only school. But the owner said that she's happy to accept me but in order to complete the BHS exams I will need to get to 10 stone (63kg) and obviously long before that so I can practice. Good motivation, eh? I'm a little sad as the stables I have lessons have big irish horses that I ride without issues and can practice there, but it's DEFINITELY not bad motivation. I need to be healthier anyway. Being on my feet for 8 hours instead of my butt will make a huge difference I'm sure.
So yeah you guys really are the closest horsey friends I have, as sad as that sounds. EDIT: that wasn't meant to SOUND sad. I mean that I have no one else to share the news with that might understand what I'm getting into. You guys are the best! In the amazing city of London if you are fat AND "old" AND inexperienced then you're not worth investment unless you pay the $$ (in my personal experience these last few years, at least). And who knows... I might just be sucked in. This might be the next stage of my life. I'm frigging petrified.
Hold me. <3
Last edited by Kalraii; 08-01-2017 at 02:47 PM.