I just walked towards a creek, loosened the reins, caught the "thing on the western saddel- in the front" and closed my eyes... I survived

In nature I usually DO jump, but I am not enough trained to du it at lessons. When I can, I walk around the obstacles, but if there is a neccessarity.... In lessons I tried few times, now about once a month with my little pony mare-she loves jumping... But really jumping training I had firstly about a year ago, on one old orlovian fox trotter, he was amazing, she jumped like 5 yo, even though he was 20 yo...