I apologize for the lengthy post but I have a serious issue and need your help. I have posted about my rescue horse Sloane a number of times, including one where you all were very supportive of my dilemma whether to stop riding completely. Now I face the moment. Sloane is a thoroughbred paint cross, somewhere in his later 20s, blind in his left eye from an early accident, no front teeth which were extracted due to eotrh, and heaves. I have not been on him in 3 months due to a series of issues including colic, needing to have another tooth pulled, thrush, and most recently an abscess. He has been through a lot. I have been riding a friend's horse through all this, as well as lunging Sloane when possible, but basically he has not been in work at all. He seems to be healed of everything and now I can get on him again, but I am afraid. I am 68 and only started riding in my mid-fifties. My first horse was a lovely older lesson horse, a Selle Francais mare and I trusted her completely. Sloane is also a very mellow, gentle, and sweet horse, and well-trained, but more of a challenge for me. He has also been spooking more lately, possibly due to a developing cataract in his one good eye. I realize that I am worried about getting on him again, because if I come off (which I do at a spook even though I am working on my seat) I risk breaking something more at my age. So my decision is whether or not to ride him or to keep riding my friend's horse, pretty much bomb proof, and just hang out with Sloane. I do miss riding him and the relationship we had developed, but I am reluctant to risk my wellbeing. I don't heal like I used to. Any thoughts?