So in 8 days i will be turning 17 and its gonna be horrible!! I had to get ride of my pony because he went blind in one eye and i was out growing him. I feel so left out because all my friends at the barn have their own horses and ponies and are going to shows this summer and their saying how much fun it will be and stuff. I feel like i missing out on a big part of my life because i really want a horse of my own and to be able to show because thats what makes me happy. But im scared if i dont own a horse and show that in a couple years i wont have time for any of it anymore. Its a big part of my life right now so i want to do as much as i can while i still can. I don't think my parents understand that. There's nothing i want more than a horse for my birthday but i know that will never happen. I just don't know what to do.