Thanks @gottatrot and @whisperbaby22 !! The little stinker sure has grown on me, despite having changed an innumerable amount of very, very messy diapers lol.
One other birth related thing I have been thinking about and wanting to comment on ... Most of what you see portrayed on TV (and some women are like this, it's true) is that once the baby is born the mother has a sudden rush of emotion and is crying and holding the baby and just overcome with love. For me, it wasn't like that. The midwife put her on my chest and I felt her squirm and make noise, and I basically thought "ok, she's alive, she's breathing," and laid back with my eyes closed and tried to come to the terms of everything that had just happened, that the pain had finally stopped, and that I was alive and I was breathing. I was in what I would call a state of shock, like one experiences after breaking a bone or concussing their head. And for several hours after, I felt drained emotionally ... monotone or neutral is how I would describe my feelings at that time. I certainly felt an instinct to protect and care for Aria immediately, but those overwhelming feelings of love and adoration took a day to begin happening, and then grew from there. After a few weeks once all the pain was gone, those emotions of love were overflowing. And now I can't hardly stand to listen to myself saying all that ridiculous baby talk/baby voice just to coax a smile out of her lol. My friend said she had a similar experience after her labor. Just basically "ok, she's alive, now leave me alone. I just want to rest now."
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Got some new pictures of Shan today! I was glad to see her still in good health. She needs some extra nutrition to help that topline and other musculature (hence the smartpak), but weight wise she looks great I think. It's so hard being so far away and not being able to go and see for myself that she is doing well and being cared for. But the BO is awesome, she really is. She's even using one of her extra blankets to put on Shan for the winter because the light canvas one I had isn't appropriate for a midwestern winter. I honestly don't think I've ever had a BO this trustworthy, this nice, and this caring. God really does provide in the most amazing ways!
Here's the little fuzzbutt lol. In the picture with two horses, she's on the left.
One other birth related thing I have been thinking about and wanting to comment on ... Most of what you see portrayed on TV (and some women are like this, it's true) is that once the baby is born the mother has a sudden rush of emotion and is crying and holding the baby and just overcome with love. For me, it wasn't like that. The midwife put her on my chest and I felt her squirm and make noise, and I basically thought "ok, she's alive, she's breathing," and laid back with my eyes closed and tried to come to the terms of everything that had just happened, that the pain had finally stopped, and that I was alive and I was breathing. I was in what I would call a state of shock, like one experiences after breaking a bone or concussing their head. And for several hours after, I felt drained emotionally ... monotone or neutral is how I would describe my feelings at that time. I certainly felt an instinct to protect and care for Aria immediately, but those overwhelming feelings of love and adoration took a day to begin happening, and then grew from there. After a few weeks once all the pain was gone, those emotions of love were overflowing. And now I can't hardly stand to listen to myself saying all that ridiculous baby talk/baby voice just to coax a smile out of her lol. My friend said she had a similar experience after her labor. Just basically "ok, she's alive, now leave me alone. I just want to rest now."
:gallop:
Got some new pictures of Shan today! I was glad to see her still in good health. She needs some extra nutrition to help that topline and other musculature (hence the smartpak), but weight wise she looks great I think. It's so hard being so far away and not being able to go and see for myself that she is doing well and being cared for. But the BO is awesome, she really is. She's even using one of her extra blankets to put on Shan for the winter because the light canvas one I had isn't appropriate for a midwestern winter. I honestly don't think I've ever had a BO this trustworthy, this nice, and this caring. God really does provide in the most amazing ways!
Here's the little fuzzbutt lol. In the picture with two horses, she's on the left.