Hello there! I am new to the whole forum-world, so please excuse me if I do something wrong.
My name is Baylee, and I am 23 years old. I live in Ohio, and I have grown up with very competitive barrel/pole horses all of my life. However, since I left for college when I was 18, I have not really ridden much. Quite frankly, I gained a lot of weight as well, which has made me very self-conscious in all aspects.
Recently, I have gotten back into riding by volunteering at my local equine rescue. After hearing about my background, they assigned me two horses right away, and now I have a lot on my plate. I joined this forum because I am starting to feel really discouraged about my rusty riding and horse handling. These horses are not the high-performance, well trained animals that I am used to, and that is quite a challenge for me. I am a perfectionist, and every time I make a mistake, it weighs on me all week until I go back on the weekend.
Lastly, I really want to make some friends. Since I graduated college, I have been really lonely. All my friends moved away to different states, and all I have left is my boyfriend. I am starting to make friends at the rescue, but I am too shy to really have meaningful conversations with them. I also feel like being a plus-sized rider has made me feel really uneasy when talking to them, because I feel judged.
So, if anyone wants someone to talk to, please please message me? I promise I'm really nice I'm just too shy to talk to anyone first.